A Day In My Life 'Lately'

You know the after effects of writing examinations, you get to have this self-reflection about yourself and life itself. You also get to have enough sleep, making up for the ones you lost during the exams and at the same time, the one I get to hate, you get to find yourself doing nothing, absolutely nothing.

All the things you told yourself you were going to do after exams, I’m telling you, it’s either you find yourself doing half of it or doing nothing at all. It’s crazy. You just suddenly become lazy and unproductive. Is it normal? Should I call it rest?

I told a friend not to force being productive and to give it time whenever there isn’t energy or inspiration but see me here trying to be so productive at all course because I can’t bear to see myself doing nothing. All that keeps ringing in my head is ‘do something, you’re supposed to be doing something’. Well, what can I do? Nothing

I’m back to school after the presidential election break. The election was a tough one, a rigged one at that. So much controversies and tribalism going on and I tell you, it’s really nothing to be happy about. I was eager to hear the winner of the election and if I said I wasn’t shocked, then, that’s a lie. I have no idea what’s going on in this country. I have no idea what’s going on in Nigeria. Everyone is so confused, angry, tired and wicked. It gets crazy every day. Every single day.

I spoke to someone who just recently moved abroad to school. We were talking about the election and how life seems to be for Nigerians, and not just even for Nigerians, also for everyone in General. He made mention of some people who even regret travelling there for one reason or the other. I mean, how bad can it get? Life is crazy and we don’t even know the way out. We’re all just focused in making money. I had to ask why we can’t see life beyond just having money. It’s so tiring. Thinking about it alone is frustrating.

I woke up so early this morning. I had planned on how at least half of my day will go. I picked up my bible to read this verse I find so interesting- Matthew 6 vs. 34, ‘’so do not worry about tomorrow, it will have enough worries of its own. There is no need to add to the troubles each day brings’’. I saw this lady talk about it on tiktok and when I read it on my own, I couldn’t relate any better.

I proceeded to cooking. To be honest, cooking is a whole load of work. Now that I think about, those that cook for a living deserve accolades. According to this Korean drama I’m currently watching, food doesn’t go to the stomach alone, it reaches the heart too. (Does this statement even make sense?) Anyways, as soon as I was done cooking, I settled down to eat and of course watched Korean drama (delivery man) while I did so. I’ve found it very comfortable to watch movie while I eat. Although it was advised that it isn’t healthy but it can’t be helped.

I felt so sleepy after eating but one more thing had to be done. Laundry. God knows, I sluggishly had the work down but nevertheless, I’m glad I did all what I planned to do. It’s really had to be productive these days, especially when you have a lot going on around you. I’m also glad, really glad I’m able to write down this piece. It’s been a while and I hope to be consistent too. Half of the day is gone already and I hope tomorrow is a better day than today.